Three years ago I brought my eldest son to Israel. He stood at the Kotel and was overwhelmed with emotion – more than I thought a 13 year old could be. For me, it was also an overwhelming experience – one that I wrote about here.
Last week on Wednesday, I returned to the Kotel to pray – and to ask for blessings for so many people. As I stood there I felt so deeply humbled at the multitude of gifts that have been bestowed upon me since my last visit.
It was not long after I prayed at the Kotel, and at my father’s and grandparent’s graves, that I met my KoD. It was mere weeks from those reflective moments that my life changed forever – for the better.
In those three years, we met, married and I moved to New York. I am married to a man who fills my life with so much love and joy. The boys are thriving. I am now working at my dream job. There is not a day that goes by that I do not thank God for his abundant blessings – but it was really brought home to me on Wednesday when I was back at the Kotel. How far have I come?! How far have I been carried?!
Sometimes we pray so hard for things, and when our prayers are answered – do we take the time to acknowledge it? Or do we just accept the positive outcome without realizing and only pause to comment when our prayers are denied?
I left my prayers and my tears on the Kotel and on my father’s grave. My soul leaves a part of itself here in Israel, awaiting my return.