The Doc has put me on prednisone (steroids) before the surgery. He mentioned side effects of moodiness and did say that they could make me psychotic.
My emotions feel like a metronome. One minute I am fine the next I am a big weepy mess, the kids ask me one question and I blow up – and it’s almost like I can see it happening but there is NOTHING I can do to stop myself.
It’s bad enough that I am in pain and cranky from that – regularly cranky Ima they can deal with. But this wild woman? I don’t want to be that person. I know it’s the medication, and I know I need to explain that to the boys. But that’s almost as if I am allowing myself to go off my head because, well, I can’t control it.
Bleargh – I think I am just going to hide away till I am on a lower dose.